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Don't bottle it up

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    It's 12.15, in the morning. Drizzling since early morning. No chance to go for an outside walk. The walkways will be messy and muddy.  I didn't have a good sleep last night. I started my day late. Every day is different, not the same. We humans too take things differently. We are not robots. We react to whatever is going on around us. The weather, the people. The effect of the weather is temporary. Behaviors of the people around us at our work and household matters a lot. The way they meet, they talk to us about matters a lot. Some talk deliberately to satisfy their ego. That hurts our feelings. Some do without knowing how we take it. We get affected anyway. Everything imparts on our personality. How we take it determines the way we react. Sometimes it takes time to exhibit our reaction. Sometimes we react abruptly right away. It depends on the personalities how much time we take to swallow the reaction. We have to filter out what we feel. Not in a rude way. Don't do ...

It is a hazy morning

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  It's 10.30 in the morning. The sun is not awake, still under his grey blanket. Maybe drowsing.  I started my day a bit early. Every night comes with surprises. Some nights are better with good sleep, some are not. Same with mornings. Every morning comes with surprises. We don't know what we will be getting. It is like Christmas. We don't know beforehand which part of our body is not going to listen to cooperate with our day plans.  Every morning brings a different story at our age. So many things start coming up at the later stages of our life. We have to accept and manage accordingly. It is 11.15, the day looks a bit brighter. The sun is awake out of his blanket to make our day. So nice of him. I can see a couple of birds in the grayish sky up above. The snow nearly gone just traces around not much. It is 12.30, I am walking by the lakeside. My son has gone for his long walk. He will drop me at the Coffee House on the way later on. It is 1.15, I am at the Second Cup co...

It is a rainy day

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  The month of March is nearly at its last leg. April is about to start after a couple of days. It's a rainy day today.  I think “ April showers May flowers " is so true. The temperature is 1 C, not good to enjoy my walk. The walkways also must be with icy patches. Not safe to go for a walk. It is better to skip today. We don't have to be ambitious. Our plans have to be keeping health and safety as a priority all the time. Safety is a priority for everyone at any age. We people at our age have to be extra careful. Any mishap will be disastrous at the later stages of life. Our body is not strong enough to handle extra pressure. Our nerves are also not ready to deal with the things around right away. Just take things easy and avoid taking any chances. Not good to elevate our blood pressure. Physical and mental well-being has to be a top priority. Lucky me my grandson, the youngest one is going to Gym. He will drop me at my second home, the Second Cup coffee house. I am getti...

Enjoying Coffee at Second Cup

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    It's a beautiful morning. A great day after all we are out of the snow. Today is the 19th of March.  How long we have to wait for our good summer days. Not anymore I think. We were so patient throughout our long wintry days. Patience works most of the time. We knew that. It is working now. The summer is just around the corner. No waiting time. I hope so. We always have to think positive. Hope for the good. That helps to keep us up with a positive attitude. It manages our mood swings and keeps our will power in balance. Things keep on changing. So is the weather and our days to manage. We don't have to take things seriously. Not worth it to put our mental and physical well-being at a stake Just try to manage your day activities accordingly. No matter what the weather is. We have no control on that. The things around are also not under our control. The only thing under our control is our own body. We are the masters of controlling our mind and our body. Don't have to le...

Sun is in full bloom

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  Today the snow has taken a break. The sun is shining in full bloom. The snow around is glistening under sunshine.  It's a beautiful scenic atmosphere to behold. Nature is great in all of its exhibits. No question about that. It is late morning, 11.30. I am done with my kitchen chores. Now sitting in my room with my computer switched on. The blinds of my windows are drawn up. Sunlight is making my room bright and cozy. I am busy browsing my Facebook messages. I am also enjoying the view outside through my windows. No birds, no squirrels outside. It looks calm and quiet in my neighborhood. It is Tuesday, garbage pick up day. Blue, green and gray bins are lined up by the driveways. The white Buick  and black Acura are staying in my driveway. All loaded with snow. My outside walks are on hold. My son and grandsons are busy working from home. I don't have to bother them to drop me at the Second Cup coffee house. I have to find things to get busy at home. We have to go with t...

It is snowing

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 It was just a couple of days ago that there were no snow banks by the roadsides.  The walkway was all cleared. Not muddy, no icy patches. I was happy with my outside walks back on track. Not anymore. Things have changed. It started snowing again. Flurries, blowing snow with wind gusts around 50 km. It looks, my walks will now be on hold for some time. We have to use whatever chances we get to make our days. We don't know what will be coming in the days ahead. Don't have to wait for tomorrow. Just do it. It is Sunday, I have no chance to get out. Snow everywhere. The grass in my front and back gardens are gone back under white blankets. The glass top of my steel garden table is loaded with a thick sheet of ice. White cushion is back on my red garden chair. The red wooden bench in my front garden is loaded with snow too. It is the middle of March and snow is not going anywhere soon. I have to find things to get busy at home. I checked my table calendar. It is time for my hair ...

Birds are back from South

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  It's a totally different scenario in just a couple of days.Things have changed so quickly. I can't see any snow by the roadsides.  The walkway is all clear. No water, not muddy and slushy patches anymore. My outdoor walks are back on track. The grass in my back garden is now out of its thick snowy blanket. My friend the Black Squirrel is busy with his exercises on the wooden fence of my garden. The Twin Towers, I mean the two tall trees in my next door neighbor's front garden, are now ready to rent out their appointments. The birds started coming back from the South of the Border. Some of them are already visiting the Towers to book their apartments beforehand. I see the trees around starting back to life. Their skeletons are now with a tinge of green in their bodies. It is 11.45, I am getting ready for my walk. Tim Hortons is still under the process of renovation. Its Drive through is open though, the seating area is closed. Now I switched. Second Cup coffee house is sor...

It's a beautiful morning

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It's a bright sunny, beautiful morning. The thick slab of ice on the glass top of my steel garden table is gone.  The red garden chair my son got from the Home Depot store years ago is shining at the left corner of my back garden. No heavy cushion of snow there. My outdoor walks are back on track after so long. It is 12.30, I started my day a bit late today. My sleep was not good last night. So many things start coming up in the later stages of our life. We don't know what we will be getting. Which part of our body is not going to cooperate with our day plans. Every morning comes up with surprises. The same is with every night. It is like Christmas every day. We don't know what we will be getting today. We have to take with patience and grace whatever is going to come up. This is life my dear. Nothing stays forever. Things go on changing every day, every moment. Nature and also the weather keeps on changing. Our mood keeps on changing too accordingly. The weather, the peop...

Just a Drizzle

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  Snowing has stopped for a couple of days.Today it's raining just a drizzle. Not much.  My walks are still on hold. The snow around started melting making conditions tricky to walk for me. Too much water on walkways. Muddy too. Safety is a priority all the time. No compromises on health and safety. We don't have to be carried away. We have to be patient. Patience is a virtue. Things are going to be better soon. Summer is just around the corner. The weather is getting better. The temperature now is no more below zero. We have to wait a bit. Things will be going back on track. It is a matter of a couple of days. My back garden is still under a thick sheet of ice. Things are the same with my front yard. The grass started showing up around the white sheet of ice. This is a great signal that our snowy days are about to be over soon. We can't wait. Our so many days were in double digits below zero. My eldest daughter in Edmonton was with 40 C below zero on so many days. Enough i...

I am enjoying my walk

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It is 10 in the morning. Beautiful sunny day bright morning. The weather is also great.  It is 2 C below zero, feels like 8 below. I can see from my window that the walkway looks clear. I have to make some calls after that I will try my luck to go for my walk. I have to call my sister-in -law back home.  Phone calls to your loved ones help to make your day. My husband passed away decades ago. I am still connected with his family members. My daughters call me every time around noon. They go back from work at that time.   They are five hours ahead of my time in Toronto. I have to go to England early next month. One of my granddaughters is to be married. I am excited for my trip to see three of my daughters, my grand kids, my sister and so many other loved ones. My eldest daughter will also be coming from Edmonton to attend the wedding ceremony. I feel lucky to see all of my family. I am happy, still under pressure. I am having mixed emotions, I think. Travel at the later s...

I miss my David Austin roses

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  It's the end of February and we are still not out of the snow. There is so much around and it keeps on coming every other day.  I miss my outdoor walks. The weather is getting better so let's see what is to come in the days ahead. Snow was a bit early this year in my city of Toronto. We used to be ready but not for this much. The situation now reminds me of the days I was in Ottawa decades ago. We have to take whatever is there anyway. I switched my walks from outdoors to indoors. I go to the Pickering Town Center to top up my steps. Whenever I get a chance I  avail right away. I don't drive so I have to keep track to coordinate with the plans of others in my household. I don’t have any problems doing that. I think when there is a will there is always a way. We have to be firm in our motto. We have to be sure of what we plan. On top we have determination to make it happen. You will never be disappointed to fulfill your chalked out plans. I believe that.

Sun smiling looks happy

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  It's a sunny bright beautiful morning. The weather is getting better.  It looks like summer is just around the corner. The snow is still all around. I see snow banks by roadsides. My walks are still on hold. It is 10.30 in the morning. My daughter, the younger one, called me from Kent. She is back from school. England is five hours ahead of Toronto time. My daughter, the middle one, will be having a long day. She has her teachers meetings on Thursdays. My sleep was not good last night. We start having all sorts of issues at the later stages of our life. We have to accept it. It is 10.45, I am in my room. The blinds of my windows are drawn up. My computer is switched on. I can see the road and the path from one of my windows. The path looks clear from here. Let's take my chances to go for a walk. I am getting ready with red woolen stole, gloves and my grey woolen pants. The weather is still cold 16 C below zero. I picked up my black heavy winter coat from my coat closet. My e...

Enough is enough

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  Nowadays it has been snowing every other day. It is not giving us any break. Today I took a day off. It will be snowing again tomorrow. We now need a break.  Enough is enough. My outdoor walks are on hold for a while. I now switched to my walks from outdoors to indoors. We always have a plan “ B “ready to switch whenever we have to. It will save your day. We don't have to wait for the right circumstances to execute the plans we already chalked out. Do whatever is available to make your day. Time doesn't wait. It keeps on flying. Moments keep on slipping. We have to be patient. Don't have to get panicky. Be patient and think about the options. There are always other options available. Try to focus on other plans keeping track of your capabilities. Don’t be too ambitious, too pushy with yourself. We are not running any marathon. Not taking part in any competitions. We have to look at our own selves. Not to worry about what others say. We worry most of the time about, “ what...

Cherry on top

   It's Sunday 9.15 in the morning. I am done with my breakfast. It started snowing. This year snow started early and is still going on. We have already had enough of it. Trees are loaded with white stuff. We have to clear off snow every morning from our cars and driveways. Snow is along the roadside sort of snow banks.  Snow removal trucks are busy most of the time on roads. I salute all the front line workers for their work and patience. I checked my table calendar. I have to change my bed sheets. I will do laundry now. It is just a small load. I will change the sheets and make my bed later. I will take out the lilac color of sheets from my linen closet.  Change of anything always adds up colors. It helps to elevate our mood. Controls our mood swings. We have to look for any change. Wherever we can, we have to take it. It is 1.30, I am done with my laundry and taking some calls. I don't make calls on weekends. People must be busy enjoying their family time. We have...

He may not be well

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  It's a cloudy, hazy morning. The sun is taking a break, maybe not feeling well.  So many people are having colds and coughs. The weather is like a roller coaster nowadays. One day we have plus temperature and the other day below zero. Some days the sun is shining in full bloom. The other day it snowed all day. Today it has been drizzling since morning. We don't know what to choose from our coat closet to go outside. My back garden has been under a thick blanket of snow for a long time. Same is with the flower bed at the back. The blood red David Austin roses and the pink Canadian roses all gone for a long break. The beautiful red, violet golden yellow and white seasonal flowers are no more here. The red Garden chair my son got years ago from the Home Depot store is loaded with a thick white cushion. The glass top of my steel garden table is under a thick slab of ice. The same scenario is in my front garden. My red wooden bench is half under snow. The trees look shaky. Some a...

Beautiful morning

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Beautiful day bright sunny morning. Snow now is not causing any problems. All the snow is piled up by the roadsides.  The walkway is cleared of snow. I can’t see any icy patches here. The weather is also great, it's no more below zero. I am getting ready for my walk after a long time.  I think I might have forgotten how to walk outdoors. Let's see. I am all set to take my chances. The snow is not here now so much water is on the path, making it a bit messy to walk on. I have my joggers on. I think it will be fine. I am enjoying my walk. We have to look at the brighter side. Always take as, “ The glass is half full not as half empty. “. Everything comes in life with some positives and some negatives. It is always like a combo. Nothing is total plus. We have to look at the brighter side. That helps in changing our perspective of things in life. Try to make your days with whatever is available. Things change, so does the weather and so is our health. Nothing is there to persist ...

I am at Mcdonald's

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  Days are passing and so is our life. Every day every moment is precious. Try to make use of that.  Time flies and never comes back. What is gone is gone for good. We have to keep that in mind. We don't have to waste our beautiful days with grudges and jealousies. We come across so many people. The people of various cast creeds and cultures. They might be with a different mind set, with different beliefs. Sometimes we have a chance to be with the same backgrounds and still we are not able to get along. So many things matter. So much is there to affect our personalities.The family, the household we live in. The relationships, the health. Not only our own health, the medical conditions of the people around. Everything plays a part in shaping our personality. Everything around us controls our mood swings, our patience level and our nature. We become harsh, easily flared up according to what we are going through. What we are dealing with in our day to day life. It's important to ...

Sun smiling from above

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  Another beautiful day. Another beautiful morning. Bright and sunny. It was snowing last night, not much, still enough.  Lots of snow is piled up around the side of shopping malls. Heaps of snow are by the road sides. The walkways are a bit slippery for me to walk on. I have to be patient and take a break. We have to think twice before making plans. Not have to be too ambitious. Health and safety have to be taken as top priority all the time. No compromises on safety. Spring is just a couple of weeks away anyway. It is not a big deal. Not the end of the world. We have so many other options to get busy to enjoy our time. We can do some physical activities at home too. Water plants, busy in the kitchen, walking around in our house  / apartment. Any chances to go to shopping malls will be a bonus like cherry on top. I feel lucky whenever my son or any one of my three grandsons will take some time off to give me a ride to get out. We have to keep track of the time table of t...

Enjoying coffee in a mug

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  It is Tuesday February the 10th. The weather is getting better. It snows once a while. Not any snow storms.  Just flurries and light snow. That adds up to the top of the snow already piled up on the sides of roads. Paths are a bit slippery, not safe to walk for the people of my age. We have to be extra cautious while getting out in this weather. City workers do their job as much as they can. Roads are clear. They clear the walkways too.  It is still slushy and with icy patches here and there. I don’t feel safe to walk. Not their fault. It is the weather. It's nearly the middle of February. The winter season is about to be over. A couple of weeks to go. Spring is just around the corner. We are in much better shape here in Toronto. My daughter, the eldest one, called from Edmonton. They have heaps of snow all around. The winter always used to be too long and drastic over there. The weather is getting better in Edmonton. They have 2 C now. Not good for them. It resulted in...

Snow snow go away

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  This February looks tough, not like the years ago. Our winter days in Canada start by the end of September.  It starts becoming harder as the time goes by. December sometimes we get snow by the end of the month and have white Christmas.  Sometimes we get snow in January. In January there is snow most of the time. February is tough in the entire winter season. This year winter is really hard. We started having snow storms for the last couple of weeks. January was not the same as the past years. We are still not out of that. Today is 7th of February and we are having 20 C below zero feels like 35 C below. My walks outside are on hold. I now have to switch my walks. Now I have to go to Pickering Town Center. To top up my steps. Tim Hortons used to be a second home for me. I used to spend my time enjoying myself on the days I was off from my work. On those days I didn't have to go to play Darts in the library. The library I use is like my work place. Nothing wrong with maki...

Sun shining in full bloom

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    It's a beautiful bright sunny morning. The sun is shining up and above in full bloom to make our days brighter.  So nice of him. It is 12 C below zero today. Much better than the last couple of weeks. Snow is on the way tomorrow. Let's see how the weather will be after that. For now I am enjoying my time. My walks are still on hold. I think it will take a while to start with.  The walkways are not totally safe for me. I am not going to take any chances. Health and safety has always been taken into account for making any plans. We don't have to be too ambitious. Too excited to cross limits. Don't have to go beyond what we are not able to handle safely. I just have to relax. We have to get busy with the things easily tackled. Nowadays Pickering Town Center is sort of my second home. Tim Hortons is under renovation. We have to switch to make our day with whatever available. We have to go with the flow. Nothing has to be taken as the end of the world. Time keeps on f...

I am at Town Centre

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   Things are getting better day by day. Snow storms have taken a break. My walks are on hold for now.  Snow is all around. Walkways are not safe for me to walk on. Icy patches are on the path. We have to be extra careful while getting out. Not have to be too ambitious while making plans.  We have to take safety as our top priority. Health and safety is a priority at any age. It becomes more important at the later stages of life. Any mishaps will be disastrous. We will be done for the rest of our life. Not easy to be back on track. I still take my chances to get out. I coordinate with the time of my son and grandsons. I go with them when they go to the gym. Kids nowadays take their workouts religiously. Going to the gym is their daily routine. They don't want to miss that. That works for me. It is 1.35, I am sitting in the food court of Pickering Town Centre. I usually used to go for my walks around 11.30 after. Not any more. My time fluctuates. It all depends on the...

Change seeps slowly

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    Change is beauty. Change of scenery. Day ends giving its way to noon, dusk and finally to night. The night gives way to mornings. It is the beautiful cycle of change. Change is the beauty of life for sure. Our childhood changes into teens. We grow up to find change in our friends and our companions. We start our family. Our new life needs to change our place to shift into a new one. We are out of the house, where we spent time with our loved ones. Our parents and our siblings. We have to move out. We need space for our family. We have to change the house. We are done with our school days and have to start our career to step into practical life. The school building has been changed into a workplace. We see our school buddies once a while. No time now. We are busy with work. Colleagues at work are now our buddies. We hang along with them. So much has been changed in our habits in our thinking in what we talk and how we talk. We don't enjoy our time with most of our old buddi...

Enjoying a cold morning

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    Things are getting better in my city Toronto. It's not snowing anymore. Bright and beautiful, cold morning with 26 C below zero.  Everything is back on track. People are at work, some are working online at home. Roads and walkways are all cleared off. Traffic is as usual. I am off today, no Darts on Thursdays. I am busy sorting my closet things. My clothes are all messed up. I have to organize that. It was on hold for so long. Not anymore. Enough is enough. I will do that today. It is 11.30, all my clothes are on my bed, out of my closet. My suitcase is also out of the cupboard. I have to sort and pack what I am not using for a while. Everything is done in about half an hour. I took a couple of my dresses to drop off at Value Village. We have to give what we are not using to others. It might help them out. It's 12.30, I am in my kitchen. I will make a veggie omelet for my son and for myself too. We don't have to forget to treat our body well. Mind and body are two in ...

I am at Town Centre

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  The snow storm is done for a while. Things are back to normal. Roads are busy.  Traffic is as usual that I can see from my window. Yesterday things were really bad. I went to attend the funeral of someone's father in the community. The front right side of our car was stuck in a ditch. I was sitting in front on that side. I had to get out from the driver's side of the door. I made it. By the Grace of God. Someone from the community dropped us home. We had to call Canadian Tire for tow truck service. It was too busy due to the weather so many calls to attend for them. It took all day to get the car back on our driveway. Thank God no damage was done. We were in one piece and so was our car. Done is done anyway. It is 10.30 in the morning. Everyone left for work. I am sitting on an empty nest. Just my eldest grandson is working from home. He is busy with his meetings and computer. It's Tuesday so I don't have to go to work. No Darts today. All sorts of grey green and blue...

Enjoying Coffee at home

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  Nowadays it's a totally different scenario in my city of Toronto. Snow everywhere, looks like wintry days of Ottawa.  It wasn't used to be in Toronto before. Winter has not been so intense here for decades. It is Monday, the first day of the week. It used to be busy, not today. Schools are closed. People are home working online. Many city facilities are closed. My work place is also closed. No Darts today. I am staying home. I have to look for things to do. Someone's father died last night. His funeral is today at noon. I have to go to be there to share her grief. It is important to be with people in their difficult moments. Sharing matters a lot. To let them know that they are not alone. They have people you can share your moments with, your thoughts. We are here to listen to all that. We have time for you. I washed and changed my bed sheets yesterday. I will make some calls. My Uni friend was in the States for some wedding. She must be back by now. I will call her. We t...